Hi everyone, I hope you are all doing well. So…I have been hiding a big secret from you all. My boyfriend and I are expecting our first child in September.
I have to be honest, the thought of being a mother is very overwhelming. Many days I look at myself in the mirror and cannot believe that I’m pregnant. It feels like one big dream, sometimes I even hope I can wake up and find out it is a dream. Yet, I know it is not.
When I first found out I was pregnant, I cried for two weeks. I cannot really control my emotions, one day I am sad, the next – happy, and then the next – in denial that this is really happening. I cried, because this pregnancy was so unexpected. Mentally and financially, I am not prepared for a baby. However, my boyfriend is so excited. He keeps saying “Patience, I can’t wait to find out the sex of the baby, so we can start decorating the baby’s room.” I have been with my boyfriend – Morris – for more than ten years and have never seen him so excited. It seems like all of our conversations revolve around the baby now.
Although I am still adjusting to the idea of being pregnant and having a baby, I realize it isn’t the end of the world. I have to make this a positive experience for my baby. I am just praying to God that I be the best person I can for my baby and boyfriend.